Pain and Suffering

Hello!

How are you? Good? Yeah, not me. Guess what started this week? Softball tryouts! Yay! No that is actually a good thing, but here's the bad part: LESS READING TIME. IF THAT'S EVEN POSSIBLE. Literally I haven't read anything other than Pride and Prejudice (for English class) and my AP Human Geography textbook. It's depressing. I haven't been watching shows either. I have nothing. It's pretty awful. Fictional characters are practically no longer in my life. All I have time for is barely ten minutes of going through Instagram and, if I'm lucky, hang out in a Harry Potter related tag. Specifically Drarry, but that's just me. I want to cry all the time. I think it's because fandoms are slightly fading out because high school decided to be a BITCH. YEAH, THANKS A LOT PARK CITY SCHOOL DISTRICT. ALSO THE AMERICAN SCHOOL SYSTEM IN GENERAL. I just wanna cry and get so dehydrated I have to be rushed to the hospital so I can get excused from school. That's how desperate I am to read more. You probably thing I'm joking right now, believe me, I'm 100% not.

Back to softball really quickly. Besides the fact I can't read anymore, I also can't move. Softball is a very different sport from skiing so there are vastly different muscles used. I can't move my legs. Or my shoulders. Or my hips. At all. Bending over? hahah that's funny. Reaching across the table? yeah, give that a try! Sitting down and standing up? may as well attempt to jump into space. It's horrible. And it sounds like I'm just miserable doing softball but I lost the sport so much. Sure, it hurts but it's so much fun. And all the girls are super awesome. It's actually worth it to limp around school to go to softball, honestly. The only thing that makes me slightly regret it is the whole reading and fandom life thing. But I love softball so, oh well.

I am also very sick. Stuffy nose, huge tonsils, insane cough, sneezing uncontrollable sick. And of course I get sick the week of tryouts, right? OF FUCKING COURSE. So yeah, that makes me even more miserable. And getting the weird looks in the hallway for how I walk isn't great either. I'm also exhausted which is why I don't stay up even later after finishing my seventeen pages of Pride and

the accuracy is realll from crossfitBrit

Prejudice, which I'm not saying is a bad book, it's just not on my TBR and because it's for school it sort of sucks the life out of it. I hate to say that because it makes me annoying, but it's just true. If you have to read a book in a certain time period then do a project on it, it sucks a lot more than it would. So back to my being sick, I sleep more than usual which is an upside and a downside because when I go to sleep is normally when I read for another hour or two. It sucks! I hate being sick.

Basically you can't even call me a fangirl right now because I'm in practically no fandoms because I don't do anything that doesn't take place at or for school. Which is just going to be the story of my life, right? Right. Great. Everything is fucking great.

--Sheiny

CASSANDRA YOU LITTLE BITCH

Hello!

So you saw my title, yes? I'll get into why.

Many of The Mortal Instrument's fans have heard that Cassandra Clare wrote Shadowhunter's Academy and it's the story of Simon and the leading up to ascension. It was so much more than that. We get some Emma and Julian, some Tessa and Will, some James Herondale, MALEC OMG OMG OMG Okay I'm getting spoilery just go read them and I highly highly recommend the audio books, they are so great.

SPOIIILLLLLSSSSS

WHY DID YOU HAVE TO END THIS WHY CASSIE? WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT? IT'S JUST MEAN. JUST MEEEAAANNNN. I hate you. I don't, but I do. George was BAE why would you kill him? He was cute and funny and smart and I just don't understand. I really don't. It makes me want to cry a lot. A lot a lot. George was so cute. I loved his accent and his demeanor. I honestly don't understand why he wasn't strong enough. And now because of all this, Simon is broken. You fucking broke Simon. I can't even.

harry and kat aaahhhh from shadowhunterstv

MALEC MALEC MALEC MALEC. I'm so fucking excited to see more of Malec in Lady Midnight because I swear if we don't, I'm going to jump off a bridge. I swear. THEY NAMED HIM MAX. I WANT TO CRY. AND HE'S BLUE AND ADORABLE. And the ENTIRE scene where the Lightwoods originally come to the academy to baby proof and talk about names made me the happiest person. When Magnus first walked in though, and he saw Clary, and I don't remember the exact line but he said something about him always enjoying her presence. Then she bounced over to him and they relationship is the absolute best because i don't even know but I just imagine him holding her as she's sobbing g because of a fight with Jace because she wouldn't go to Simon because he'd beat Jace to smithereens but Magnus would just sit there and hold her and god I just can't explain it because it's so cute. "Magnus was always pleased to see Clary. 'Hello, Biscuit,' he said. Clary sidled over to the doorway and grinned up at him, a thousand gallons of troubled in a pint sized body. "Hi.'" ITS SO CUTE. SO CUTE.

PARABATAI YUS. I'm so pumped because now I know more about how the parabatai ceremony and things work, and holy shIT. Now, I just look at people who are good friends and decide if they're close enough to be parabatai or not and it's so beautiful. I can't even begin to understand why we didn't get this in the books orginially because it's so beautiful and wonderful and Simon and Clary and uuughghh. It's so beautiful and Simon and Clary are gonna be parabatai and Simon all broken so still FUCK YOU CASSANDRA.

Catarina is fucking fabulous. She's so badass and she's everything I imagined her to be from The Bane Chronicles and more. Her little relationship with Simone throughout the story was beautiful. Right after George, it was her to grab Simon's shoulder. Her. OHMYGOD SO CUTE. I can't even handle it.

This book is an amazing example of why I read. It. Makes. Me. So. Happy. SO. HAPPY.

--Sheiny

Best Ending Ever... Or, It Would've Been.

Hello!

Today most of this post will be a iMessage conversation between me and a close friend whom I will call Hermione for their privacy.

Sheiny- (with a picture of The Quill of Acceptance and The Book of Admittance article)
GO TO POTTERMORE AND READ THIS AND BE DISAPPOINTED WITH ME AS TO WHY THE HELL THIS WASNT IN THE BOOKS

hermione and my 8th
grade graduation

Hermione- WHAAT

Hermione- THIS MAKES SO MUCH MORE SENSE

Hermione- AND WOULD HAVE BEEN SO COOL IN THE STORY

Sheiny- I KNOW IM SO ANNOYED IT WAS NEVER MENTIONED

Sheiny- AND NEVILLE

Hermione- YES

Hermione- AND IMAGINE THEM FINDING IT AND SEEING ALL THE NAMES AND STUFF

S- I'm so unsurprised that Neville was doubted to be a wizard until he was eight (laughing emoji) BUT COULDVE BEEN A FANTASTIC ENDING LIKE THE THREE LOOKING AT THE FUTURE LITERALLY

H- YESS AND IMAGINE THE NOSTALGIA IF HARRY WAS LOOKING THROUGH THE BOOK AND JAMES AND LILYS NAMES WERE NEXT TO EACH OTHER

S- YES YES YES OMFG AND I JUST UGH THAT SHOULDVE HAPPENED

And then some theories of ours that I'll get back to. If you haven't read the article linked above, go do so now so that you'll be in the loop.

This is the coolest concept because this is making the future. It's writing exactly who's coming to the school in eleven years and that is just mind blowing to me. And it makes me really sad that not every Harry Potter fan out there has read this article because it's such an interesting topic. It's so cool. I just want a series where someone figures out how it works because I'd like to know. Also Neville, you're so cute. I love you.

Hermione and I also came up with some fantasies about how this book could work.

H- BUT WHAT IF THE BOOK WOULD WRITE NAMES IN GROUPS AND LIKE IF NAMES WERE TOGETHER THAT WOULD MEAN THAT THEY WOULD BE INVOLVE OR REALLY GOOD FRIENDS
AND THE MARAUDERS NAMES WERE ALL NEXT TO EACH OTHER AND LILY TOO
BUT THEN AFTER JAMES AND LILY DIED DUMBLEDORE NOTICED THAT PETERS NAME HAD MOVED

S- HONESTLY AND PEOPLES NAMES WOULD CHANGE COLOR AS TO WHAY HOUSE THEYRE IN AND THEIR CHILDREN COULD BE LISTED UNDER THEN AND FAMILY TREES AND OMFG WAHT

(then we just expressed how annoyed we were again)

H- cough cough harry and dracos names being next to each other \

S- GOALS
ALSO REMUS AND SIRIUS's
AND LILY AND SNAPES RELUCTANTLY BEING TOGETHER THEN AFTER THE MUDBLOOD INCIDENT IT MOVES FAR FAR AWAY

And then we began talking about the 5th Wave move. Still gotta read it. And then see it. Even though everyone hated it. But honestly this friggen idea makes me so happy and J.K., I don't get disappointed in you nearly ever but right now if I could send you to be without supper I would. I'm pissed off this idea is so cool. I just don't understand why this is a thing. Why would you so that. WHYYYY!?!?!??!

Oh well. I'm in a reading slump. I have no new books EXCEPT ONE WHICH ILL WRITE ANOTHER POST ABOUT. But besides that I really haven't been reading because HIGH SCHOOL'S A BITCH.

Yeah. I'm boring. Oh well. Have a nice day!

--Sheiny

Pottermore -- Update

Hello!

So, a while back I posted about pottermore, and all the changes it underwent. For example, got rid of the game aspect altogether. I'm still upset about that. BUT they just introduced a bunch of stuff that I plan on discussing throughout the post!

J.K.'s Writing- This is (probably) my favorite aspect of this new pottermore because she's been releasing them so much more and they're so good and so interesting. It makes me sad that some of this stuff wasn't in the books and that all the Harry Potter (books) fans HAVEN'T read these things. The biggest and most crushing example of this so far is The Quill of Acceptance and The Book of Attendance. If you haven't read this article go read it now. I think I'm going to write an entire post about it, actually. It's so interesting and I'm going to write about it in a later post so, yeah. It's so great reading from J.K. again, I miss it. WRITE MORE PLEASE PLEASE pLeAsE.

my new desktop background from pottermore

Sorting and Wand- Pottermore has just, just, added the sorting and wand aspects back into the site! This was very exciting. I could sing in again! Yay! I got to see my wand! I missed it. So much. I miss my cat though. Damnit. The coolest thing about this sorting, now I can click on Slytherin and it takes me to dozens of cool Slytherin articles, comics, pictures, excerpts, anything and it's really great. I also can (and have) download Slytherin backgrounds and photos. They make me very happy.

News- Specifically about Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them movie and Harry Potter and the Cursed Child play! If I see the play, my heart will actually break from excitement. I'm so excited. ITS A SEQUEL OMG WE GET MORE ON ALBUS (child not the disturbing ex-headmaster) AND HIS OTHER KIDS AND HARRY AND RON WITH JOBS AND I CAN'T. We get all kinds of news from trailers to casting to set design to makeup and costume design. It really gets you excited for upcoming events.

Wizarding Schools- Okay, technically this is from J.K.'s Writing, but it was too good for me not to write a separate section. There are eleven other wizarding schools around the world, and JK is releasing articles on the bigger ones, and holy SHIT they're so cool. Japan is definitely the coolest. When you first arrive at school you are provided robes that change color as your magical intelligence increases, starting with a pink and, if you get top scores in all your classes, finishing with gold. It gets better. If you were to perform an act of illegal (dark) magic, your robes turn white. To "turn white" is the utmost disgrace and you are immediately expelled and put on trial. SO SICK AND PRODUCTIVE. There's also the African one where they're famous for their spell-casting WITHOUT wands! IT S SO COOL. This also creates problems because people can claim they didn't mean to cast a rather nasty spell, i.e. "I didn't mean to give them a boner, I was just flipping my hair!"

Explore the Story- this is the area where the rest of it goes. The comics/explanation pictures, theories, deeper meanings, anything else. The best are the pictures they make of the number of mentions of a character and their first and last mentions, their traits, its beautiful. This is also where character profiles go, most include date of birth (and death if they're dead), their wand type, their heritage, their animagus, etc. It's beautiful and amazing and nearly makes up for the lack of gaming.

Pottermore has gotten so much better and I spend basically 24/7 on it because this friggen school blocks everything else! Yeah. It's fabulous and it makes my year!

--Sheiny

XOXOXtinemay

Dear Christine Riccio,

Hello! I know you don't read these, but I have to write to someone in the top of the field of fangirling so yeah. Basically you are goals and I love you and victory rolls and goals. You preach the absolute best in all of our universe and you rock at it. I love your book talks and how excited you are in them I love your games because you make them funny for you and us. I love all the other booktubers you invite to your channel because it creates different perspective. I love your bookhauls because you don't tell us too much or too little. I love the questions you ask authors and other celebrities you get to meet because you make them engaging.

too accurate from your channel

I remember when I was first introduced to you, I stayed up all night watching your videos and saying to myself, I want to be just like her. Her status is my goal in life. Now, that's changed only a little, but not much. You still complete a lot of my life. You are also fabulous at making predictions and theories and new ways the story could go.

I did try to make book videos once. My best friend and I tried really hard to make funny and interesting videos like yours, yet we failed. Miserably. We were only funny to ourselves and uploading our videos was not in our favor. You were 100% our inspiration, though.

Your Cassandra Clare videos are my absolute favorites. I love your theories especially the Isabelle theory (it's going to come out in The Dark Artifices I swear). I also love your book talks and your merchandise (the stuff you wear in your videos for Cassie videos) and just how dedicated you are to make us entertained and your commitment really inspires me, specifically in these videos.

I write my blog for you because you are the goals of the fangirl community. 267,140 subscribers on YouTube is goals. For you to put yourself out to that many people and have the amount of authors that you do come talk to you directly is what I'd like to achieve as a fangirl and reader. Going to the conventions and shows you get to go to. Getting the free books and merchandise you get. The amount of books you have. I secretly envy you because of your success, but that just pushes me harder.

--Sheiny

Now I'm done talking to her because each of my posts is for her. I HAVE TO TALK ABOUT SHADOWHUNTERS. RIGHT NOW. I'm so excited man it's already going in a better direction and heading to better places and there are less horrible acting scenes. The special effects probably won't fix up for a while (if at all) but there are less dramatic ridiculous scenes, that's good. Ok, Simon and Camille? What the actual fuck? That was not a thing and it was disgusting. I was very uncomfortable with that happening. And Meliorn needed to be much more attractive. That hair man. Bleh. Gross. Then he and Izzy had full on sex! Again, NoT a ThInG. But the conquering the vampires scene was badass and exactly what I wanted. The scene with Jace teaching Clary the knife movements was pretty bad, but they are so... YEAH. VERY EXCITED ABOUT THE DIRECTION OF THIS SHOW.

--Sheiny

How Did This Happen?

I have friends. I do. I know I'm the nerdy girl who reads in the corner a lot of the time but I have friends. My main group of friends or as we call our selves squad. My squad is made up of a random yet perfect group of insanity. This may or may not be copying completely but I loved the idea too much not to. I'm going to nickname my friends by book characters from, you guessed it, Harry Potter.  Hopefully these friends of mine will be able to figure out who they are because (not the sharpest needles in the haystack (JUST KIDDING ILYSM)).

my dysfunctional yet functional friend family

Dean Thomas

Lily Potter

Remus Lupin

Seamus Finnigan

Katie Bell

Draco Malfoy

Minerva McGonagall

Ron Weasley

Cho Chang

I'm in that midst as well, incase you were wondering. I take what I said back, you guys won't figure out who's who. Sorry. I probably won't explain it either. Not sorry. About half of these people I met under two months ago. And how I've grown to love these people and need these people so much it scares me. I've shared so much with these people I feel so much more connected to them than I have anyone else. These people make me feel completed. They will always give me a shoulder to cry on, a hand to hold, a leg up, arm candy (the girls are much more attractive), a chest to punch, or a pillow of a thigh. These people care. They're some of the only people that do. I love them so much. All of them in their own unique way make this group a functioning friend group and I thank them for it everyday. 

Okay I might start crying if I keep writing about that so... let's talk about my day yesterday.

Yesterday was a really tough day. If you don't know or haven't heard, yesterday was the day Alan Rickman passed away. I found out on Instagram about thirty seconds after I woke up and I started crying. I realized I still had to go to school and stopped. I got dressed, I brushed my teeth, I packed my bag and I still had 30 minutes before I had to go to school. I thought too much and almost began crying again. Almost. I went into school unhappy. I organized the library books and was still not feeling any better (I love organizing bookshelves). I went to AP Geography and I did something that actually made me happy. I searched in google "wolfstar tumblr"

from tumblr

and that was the ONLY thing that made me even remotely happy. Then I went on Instagram and my ENTIRE FUCKING FEED WAS ALL ABOUT ALAN AND IT DIDN'T FUCKING HELP AND I'M PISSED. FUCKING PISSED. Then I saw a photo of Alan with the comment "When I'm 80 years old and sitting in my rocking chair, I'll be reading Harry Potter. And my family will say to me 'After all this time?' And I will say, 'Always.'" And I broke down. He never made it to 80. I'll never forget that. I remember reading that quote years ago and I said "That is so ME!" and now it'll never be him either. It just hurts and nothing makes sense right now. He made such an impact on my life that I just can't see straight. It's not okay. Nothing is okay.

I'm done. It's going to be okay. It's not right now but it will be.

--Sheiny

It Has Finally Arrived. It's Time.

Hello!

IT'S HERE. SHADOWHUNTERS DAY HAS COME AND GONE AND THE SHOW WAS OHMYGOD. Okay, for the non-spoiler section the acting and the special effects were pretty bad. BUT the potential for where this show is going and how it's going and following the plot of the book and ohmygod. I'm very impressed. I figured it'd just be anything but the book but damn, they were close. Ok now I gotta talk spoilers

SPOILERS

Okay so the start of her walking into the art school was actually kind of awesome to see right away that she's like an art person but we also knew by her portfolio they were going to let her in because of that. It was pretty obvious. Then her with Simon was a fabulous BrOTP moment that I don't think I could've lived without. Then she goes home and sees her mom and her mom gives her the "family heirloom" which I actually liked because now she has the family's instead of one she gets randomly. Then the demon attack and Dot (the actual fuck was this bitch and why was she good???) being possessed by the ravener demon and those action sequences were pretty great. Ok, but before the demon attack and Clary was there?!? Uh nope. And the special effects of that portal. Uh hell no.
And Clary's scared acting. Laughably no. But Dominic and Alberto and Harry were pretty fucking awesome. And I loved Pandemonium, and the Institute was all tech-y which I thought is actually cooler because their technology was just not logical in the book. We also got no explanation of anything so people watching this show and not having read the book are just lost. Straight up, these people must be so confused because they didn't explain shit. I understand the need for the "All the legends are true" line but still. We need some more. And I would like some more Magnus. Now. I love Harry Shum and I love Magnus so overall, thoroughly excited for more of him.

i mean come on, a cover like this is bound to have some issues. from fan-place

I actually loved Simon in this, like a lot. He was really funny and how he was around Clary was great. I know that'll all get ruined once the whole "love triangle that lasts for 20 pages" happens. But still. Then Sizzy. AND MALEC THERE'S ALREADY AN EPISODE CALLED MALEC SO PUMPED. I loved Jocelyn and Luke was great and way to attractive for me to handle. The men in this show, man. So attractive. All of them. And you know you're only going to get more attracted to them as the show goes on. It's going to turn into Benedict Cumberbatch. He's really unattractive but apparently after you watch Sherlock you're magically attracted. Whatever. I still haven't watched it. Sorry not sorry.

I'd rate this finally an 85%. The soundtrack, the ideas put in place, and the cliffhanger really made it fabulous. What dropped it was the horrible special effects for the magic and the acting (specifically Katherine, I LOVE YOU THOUGH, I JUST KNOW YOU CAN DO BETTER) because they were disappointing.

Also there was a new Pretty Little Liars. It was okay. Not great. Kind of over this show. Should've ended it last season to be honest. It's just the same thing every season. Whatever. It's fine. I'll probably keep watching it because I'm trash.

So, not really reading anything. Sorry. It's finals week and I'm busy all the time. Reading slumps if you'll refer to my post "I Hate Myself" you can find more.

--Sheiny