I Hate Myself

Hello!

Yes, it's true. Sometimes, I really hate myself because I don't give myself enough time to read. So, here's the deal. I haven't been reading all that much, I'm currently reading The Gunslinger by Steven King, but I recently forgot it at my grandparent's house so it's not in my possession, and I've been watching Grey's Anatomy. And not just watching, but watching for basically every minute I'm not skiing (have I mentioned ski practice has been at 7 a.m. every morning over break? I've been getting up earlier over break than I do for school) which is fairly often, but every other minute I'm attempting to watch Grey's. I started three weeks ago and with school work and the skiing I am now more than halfway through season five.

WARNING: SPOILERS

I won't be talking about the show all that much because I emotionally can't. But I AM CRISTINA. I'd just like to say that. I just reached the part where everyone FINALLY finds out about Izzy because she's annoying and doesn't use her doctor brain to figure out the fact that Denny isn't just grief but whatever. Also, Merder? New OTP by far. I hate myself because yes, I know what's coming and yes, I am thoroughly upset before it's even happened. ALSO ON SEASON FIVE AND I KNOW BASICALLY ALL THE PEOPLE THAT DIE AND NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO GEORGEEEEEEEE. I'm really unprepared for George because he is amazing and I know that when he dies everyone thinks he's going to war so he's a John Doe and they don't know he's dead and basically so not ok it's not even funny. It's not funny, AT ALL. LEXIIIIIIIIIII. MARKKKKKKKKKKK. DeRekkkkkKkkkKkkKkkkKKkkk. I'm ok. Maybe. Is it also bad that this show really wants to make me be a doctor? I think it is. Fake things should not make your life decisions, right?

thank you, dead vampire (SPOILERS) for explaining my feelings
from chasingfaerytales

I didn't exactly write this post to be all about Grey's though, I wrote it to talk about all the things that have been dragging into this reading slump. I reallyreallyreallyREALLY WANT TO READ OKAY?!?!? I just can't. I go in the #drarry and the #jily tag and it's a black fuckin hole, man. Everything there is so funny and adorable and honestly, why wouldn't you just hang there for the rest of your life? I have a ridiculous amount of books to read (an not a big enough bookshelf, but that's beside the point) and I WON'T READ. I'm probably one of the absolute most annoying people I know.

Besides the reading slump, not having a wonderful break. I had a good Christmas and I saw my friends, and that was nice. I've been getting up at 5:45 in the morning. I hate too many people in my life (CRISTINA). I just doesn't work out well for me overall. Oh well. I have Grey's and my friends. I will survive. HEY HEY. Sorry. Unnecessary.

I also am so FUCKING EXCITED BECAUSE ShAdOwHuNtErS comes out in FoUrTeEn DaYs. I'm REALLY excited. Ok, now I'm all good. Also, if that link is not enough fangirl material, there are promos all over YouTube and Instagram.

--Sheiny

iZombie and Dragging Grown Men

I supposed with wasn't men, plural. Just one. But I'll get into that later.

Okay, latest iZombie, 2x04, not blown away. I mean, we had beautiful Peyton/Liv and Major/Liv moments, but I kept getting bored. I ended up watching the episode about three times so that I could write even a slightly interesting blog post, but I can't. Peyton finally say Liv and they hugged and it was adorable. But there were no really funny or really sad moments so... That was fabulous! Liv kissed Major! Yay! Yay! We waited fucking forever for that. But besides that, nothing really important went down. Kinda disappointed.

RANT TIME

So, as I've explained before, I'm a ski racer. Because of the lack of snow, we do drylands every day at Alpenfit gym. For those of you who don't know, drylands is a work out geared toward whatever sport you do, so we do squats, dead lifts, push pulls, power cleans, and conditioning-type-things. This week  has been one of the hardest weeks ever. On Monday, they took us jogging over the the ski hill, and made us run up and then down the race hill, twice. My shins hurt for days. And the worst part was, it was freezing, so your insides are on fire but your outside is blue.

Then on Tuesday we did anaerobic exercises, namely kettle bell swings, sit ups, squats, then burpees, for twenty seconds then ten seconds of rest. And ten seconds seems like a reasonable amount of time, when actually that's nothing. Nothing. So actually, we got no rest and all work. And all of that doesn't seem so hard, but then we had do each exercise eight times. That turns out to be 32 rounds of twenty-seconds-on-ten-seconds-off. Needless to say, I then took Wednesday off.

"get your fat ass off!" -chloe whalen. courtesy of the fitness armory

But I did go back to drylands on Thursday. It was great, at first. We talked for a little while about everything that's coming up, and then we did yoga. It was really hard, but it wasn't exhausting it just was really hard on my abs and now, standing up is the real struggle. Then, we did an exercise where we hop from a couple feet off the ground, and try not to wiggle. That was really great too, right? Not so hard? Yeah, get this.

We also have the conditioning component to drylands, correct? Yesterday we had to do the shuttle run and pull the sled five times. Now, for the shuttle run we just run ladder, you know when you run from start to ten feet then to start then to twenty, etc. That wasn't so bad. But the sled. This to the right is the sled. We also have a rope with loops on the end thought that little circle that a person wears like a backpack. Now, one person is wearing the straps to pull and the other is pushing with those two metal rods. For my partner and I we had a twenty-five pound and a thirty-five pound weight on each rod as seen in the photo. But then, he split us into teams of three and four. Luckily, I had four but we are the slightly less strong people on the team. We kept the weights with two people pushing and two pulling. Then, our coach, Brian, sat on it. So, yes we had to drag a grown man. Now, my shins hurt even more. Brian, you're lucky I nearly passed out, otherwise I would've socked you in the jaw. And more.

So, basically my week. And yes, I left the dragging the grown man part for last so you'd read until then because this is so boring! I'm sorry. Hopefully my pain is slightly entertaining? Funny? Whatever.

Okay, when your ship might die, you stress. A lot. Merida is horrible and obnoxious and Emma needs to stop. Oh, right, I'm now shortly talking about the new sneak peak for 5x06 of Once Upon a Time because god dammit.

That's it. I'm sorry it's so horrible. I just felt like talking about dragging grown men was a good time. Oops.

--Sheiny

Why? Why!? WHY!?!?

Hello!

How's life? Mine's chaotic and crazy and uncontrollable and I think I'm about to lose my mind. The homework load in ninth grade is so much more than in eighth. In eighth grade they were always saying "I'm only doing this to prepare you for high school." Yeah, well you did a pretty shitty job at it. I have about four and a half hours of homework every night. Last year I had more like two. this is beginning to get ridiculous. How to these teachers expect good grades and sometimes extra credit, if that's expected in five classes. Don't any of you teachers ever talk to each other about homework load and maybe not cause unhealthy stress on your students?

In a study taken at Xavier University, it says that teen suicides spike during school times. They drop off during the summer and longer breaks, then spike once school begins. Suicide has moved from being the third leading to the second leading cause of deaths among 15-24 year olds. Why does this not spark anything in our society? Does this not raise any flags for anyone but me? People always say that high school isn't the best. Cleary it's not! How come children are miserable all the time, I mean from my personal experiences 97% (yep, just made that up) of kids that I meet, hate school. I've met maybe five kids who like school at my age. I just don't understand why our school and education systems haven't changed. 

Honestly how I felt the entire time while reading All the Bright Places.
Courtesy of giphy

Well, that was unbelievably depressing, but I needed to get it out. Believe me I thought I would explode. Also, a book that has teen suicide that is literally one of the best books I've ever read in my All the Bright Places. It's about a boy and a girl who meet at the top of a bell tower and it's unclear who saves who. I read it this summer at camp, and it actually changed the way I look at teenagers these days. Also The Perks of Being a Wallflower is an eye opening movie with the topic of suicide involved.
life is

So back to how I think I'm losing my mind. I'm a ski racer, did I mention? Right now because there's no snow we have drylands training everyday. On Friday, the 9th, we had to do the Beep Test, or the Pacer Test. It hurt so bad. But only five out of fifteen of the kids on my team showed up. So my ski coach was pretty upset. So yesterday he made us do The Filthy Fifty which is when my coach picked ten exercises that we had to do 50 times each. In the end that meant five, HuNdReD, EXERCISES. Well, four hundred for me. I haven't really been saying this but I technically only had to do forty of each because I didn't go to dryland all summer and my coach didn't want me to die of exhaustion. BUT STILL THAT FOUR HUNDRED EXERCISES. I feel like I'm going to just fall on my face and pass out. Thanks, Brian, you suck. 

I'm so so sorry that I haven't been posting fandom stuff a lot lately, I've been in a reading slump. Back to the four hours of homework and the drylands everyday, I don't have much time. I'm so mad about it. But I have picked up a new TV Show, it's called iZombie and it's made by the same guy as Veronica Mars and it's so good. Season 2 just started and I'm bouncing, I'm so excited.

Thanks for letting me rant my guts out, jeez it was really bad today.

--Sheiny